Growing Goodness

It's late, but I'm determined to write something. I've been working on a little multimedia presentation for the Farmer's Market Nutrition Coupon project that I've been helping to evaluate for the last couple of years. I took it on to help out and now it's midnight and I've just barely made a dent. But still, it's fun to get to do something other than mum. I'll post a link to the "story" when it's done. Until then, let me just say that small children discovering fresh fruit are very cute.

Goodnight.

Cherry Watches Her First Operation, Move 2 Squares

This weekend I bought:

• a few yards of fake leather
• a long roll of "fabric" that is dark blue vinyl on one side and royal blue fuzz on the other
• a "Nurse Cherry Ames" board game from the 50's
• three old glass bottles
• a foot long toy greyhound bus with all its paint
• a melodihorn that mostly works
• a vintage black bakelite plastic viewmaster with personal photos of someone's trip to Hawaii in the 50's

Now, I just have to decide what I'm going to do with all this stuff. Jaya gets the bus, of course. And Emma may get the melodihorn, if she promises to play me songs on it. What I'm really curious about is what the blue fuzzy stuff will get to be...

I'm determined to make something this week. Hopefully involving felt. Will report back...

I was walking with Jaya and the dogs this morning and a woman across the street called out to me "I love your family". It was a odd moment, but also very sweet. What a nice thing to think and to share with someone when you're walking down the street in the morning.

Later this morning, a friend pointed out how, when you're out with a baby, you don't get to be anonymous. It's true - and a wonderful way to engage with people - but it makes me think about all the times we are anonymous in the city. I often think, when I see someone struggling in their minds or bodies on the street, about how once they were someone's baby and people looked at them and thought they were cute or sweet or something nice. And now, we walk past them. And I think about what happens in people's lives that takes them from one place to the other. And, of course, I think about my baby and what will happen to him and what he will become. I know we're giving him gifts that very few people get - having to do with love but also having to do with wealth and circumstances we can take no credit for - and I know that accounts for a great deal. But there is also luck and choice and life that intervenes. So tonight I am thinking about blessings and hoping for a few for Jaya, and all the other babies who are sleeping and waking tonight.

Just a few words

Heard a piece on CBC today about the Disappeared in Argentina. The man being interviewed, a journalist who was working there at the time and who was one of the few people reporting on what was happening, talked about how he felt it was the media's responsibility to report on what is happening around them, no matter how difficult. He said he felt that, in Argentina, even though people could see what was happening right in front of them...neighbours going missing, men with machine guns walking down the street and abducting people in broad daylight...they could pretend it wasn't happening because no one was talking about it.

Imagine. You might be standing beside someone who is suddenly taken and you might say to the person across from you, "hey, did you see that!", and they say, out of fear and disbelief perhaps, "no, I don't know what you're talking about", and you think, oh, okay, maybe I didn't either, or maybe it doesn't matter, because if you didn't you'd have to do something about it and since no one else is doing anything about it, maybe you don't have to either.

I think that's a fascinating perspective on human being-ness that's worth thinking about.

I haven't forgotten I wanted to share some projects, but it's going to have to wait until I'm less about to fall asleep. In the meantime, here's a "before" shot...

Today I vaccumed

And this evening I am working on knowing that that is enough.

It's easy to say to a new mum, "sleep when the baby sleeps" and "don't worry about housework" - I'm quite sure I'll say it to the next new mum I meet - but the reality...the baby only sleeps when you're out and not worrying about the housework leads to depression and tumbleweed sized fur balls that will kill you as soon as look at you...renders this well meaning advice, well, meaningless.

And yes, Jaya is (finally) sleeping and so yes, I should be sleeping too, but a few minutes at the end of the day has become my saving grace. Instead, I am sitting here looking at my relatively fur free floor, sipping a bit of wine, and reminding myself that this is the most important job I've ever done. If a few other things, like dishes or thank you cards (sorry every friend we ever had), get neglected while I try to figure it out, then so be it.

I think the advice I should really give to the next new mum I meet is this: Forget about a room of your own. Even if you have one, forget about sleeping in it, keeping it clean or even getting in the door most days. But make sure you find a little bit of time of your own. Twenty minutes will do, but an hour is better. Every day. It's important. And if you have a little time left over you can choose between sleeping and cleaning. Both are good.

Tomorrow, I think, I will start sharing some of the projects we're working on...there's one involving drawers and coat hangers that I'm very excited about. And maybe talking about it will help get it done. I can always dream...

Monday, Monday

Jaya has a cold, it's probably going to rain on the porch roof that Kelsey dismantled and only partially rebuilt on the weekend, and our house looks like every "before" picture you've ever seen all mashed into one and not an "after" in sight...but otherwise, it's a beautiful day.

Put another way, Jaya is currently sleeping, it's not raining yet, and there are so many delicious projects for me to do...really, it's a surplus of riches.

Oh wait, I take that back, Jaya's not sleeping anymore. And that, folks, is the end of today's post...

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oh well.

So, it's not that I exactly forgot. To write every day, I mean. Well, on the first day I kind of forgot, and when I remembered, we were in the car, and then when we weren't in the car anymore, I forgot again. On the second day, I mostly didn't forget, but it was a fussy kind of day and I didn't even have one hand most of the time. Then I stayed up after the boys went to bed to catch up on email and facebook and the like, and forgot. When I finally remembered, I had just sent the computer off to do a bunch of updates and the opportunity was lost.

Phew, how's that for an excuse?!

Anyway, now it's the third day and I'm typing with one (left) hand, but at least I'm typing!

And I thought I would share a recipe today. I'm not much of a recipe person myself, I just don't have the discipline, but I usually start with something that looks yummy and follow the basic principles. So, however you cook, here's something yummy to try...

Quick and Easy Nut Sauce

(Adapted from Recipezaar's Peanut Sauce)

• 6 tablespoons nut butter (I've tried almond and peanut, both are yummy!)
  
• 3 tablespoons seasoned rice vinegar
• 4 teaspoons tamari
• 2 teaspoon maple syrup
• 1 small garlic clove, minced
• 1/3 cup water
• 2 tablespoons chopped fresh cilantro
• lime to taste

Combine all ingredients except cilantro and blend well. Add cilantro before serving. We've had it over veggies and rice and also used it as a dip for pinwheels made with soft tortillas, rice, yam and veggies...

Hope you like it!

Catching up

It's an odd thing how having "nothing to do" ensures you get nothing done.

I have just bought myself a little book in which to write an ongoing list of things I want to get done (I know I have a little empty book just like this somewhere, but finding it is the kind of thing that should be on the list, so...).

My rules for this book are:

1. Only put things on The List that can realistically get crossed off in a reasonable time frame and that I can do myself (no "renovate the kitchen")

2. Only put things on The List that need to be done once (no "walk the dog")

3. No prioritizing - just put it on the list and do it when the mood strikes (if it's really urgent, do it today, don't put it on The List)

4. No feeling bad that I haven't done it yet (put it on The List and it will, eventually, I hope, possibly get done)

5. Start doing the things that are on The List, even if it's slowly and with one hand

7. Every time a whole page of things gets done (that's 14 things, in case you were wondering), celebrate. Take myself out for a beer, have a bath, nap, whatever. Just celebrate.

6. And of course, if it's not on The List, and I've just done it, put it on The List and cross it off.

And that's what I did today.

Something that is not in the book, because it doesn't qualify, is to write here more often. I think the routine of daily writing might be something I need these days, so I'm going to try. I suspect things may get boring fast, so consider yourself warned.

Oh also, there are new photos. Here's one, the others are on flikr...


See you tomorrow!